I didn’t sleep overly well last night, meaning I spent all day at work tired. Not what you need when things decide they are going to go wrong, again. Still, I might start yesterday’s work tomorrow if I am lucky!
As a result of my fatigue all day, I really wasn’t in the mood for doing anything tonight, which included exercise. I just want to rest. That and dinner was quite late today; yet I can’t figure out why. I seem to have lost 40 minutes since I came in….somewhere between cooking dinner and finishing eating it.
On the plus side, my boss bought donuts for the office today. They were screaming out to me all afternoon, tempting me with sugar to get me through the day. I resisted and did not have one at all. Nor did I listen to my body when it was pleading for caffeine and go to the shop for a highly sugary energy drink. Normally I would have just left the office and gone to get some. Not today. It was very difficult.
Why didn’t I do those things which I would normally just jump into without thought? Posting here. Well, partly. I didn’t have the donut because I knew I would have to confess here, then I would feel bad about being weak. I also realised that even if I did have one, I would feel good for 5 or 10 minutes, then I would crash and be no further on.
I didn’t go to the shop for an energy drink because I would have to confess on here. I would feel better for longer with it, and might have even managed exercise, but I need to get over my seeming dependency on these things. I also can’t afford to keep going to the shop and getting these things. Money is very tight at the moment and I still have a holiday to pay for. Holiday and fuel. Nice combo!
Instead, this is what I have consumed today:
Breakfast:
- 2 slices of toast with brussels pate
- 1 glass of orange juice
Lunch:
- Tuna-mayo and cucumber sandwiches
- 1 muller light cherry yogurt
- 2 medium granny smiths apples
- 1 medium banana
Dinner:
- Pasta bolonaise
- Garlic bread
I have had my 2 litres of water today, and I will have more soon. I’m thirsty again.
Last night after I posted I was feeling really hungry. Looking back, I think it was all in my mind as I had a long conversation about food with my girlfriend and my mind wandered into that realm. As a result I went and had 2 slices of toast with pate last night just before bed. I’ve been good today, but I think I cheated a little last night.
Resisting temptation is really difficulty, I found. However, if you succeed, you feel so much better for it than any pick-up the junk food might have given. You can’t beat that!
Great job on resisting the donuts. I have been so successful because I haven’t had to deal with outside temptation. Kudos to anyone that can avoid the donuts brought in by the boss.
Keep up the great work.
Oh, I agree that you do feel so much better resisting the temptation. I’ve failed many a time and other then the few short minutes of eating, there is no pleasure afterwards, just guilt, depression and weight gain.
Thanks. I looked in the bag to investigate, that’s as close as I came. It is so tough to hold back when all you feel like doing is eating. Water is my friend.